Wedding Planning Wednesday: On Being a Bridezilla

My name is Helen and I am a quiet Bridezilla. I really want to be calm and enjoy this process, and for the most part, I do, but I have had several moments of Zilla that I am a little ashamed of.

Mostly I’m a Zilla in my head. I don’t want to make anyone angry so I don’t show it to people too often, but gosh, sometimes I think I might actually explode.

I am a planner. I like deadlines. I like to know exactly what is going on. When someone suggests something last minute (which in my head was last month), or doesn’t get back to me, or I don’t know what’s going on, I lose it a little bit. And by a little, I mean a LOT. Again, only to myself. I don’t want a vendor to not work with me because I’m a pain in the butt.

If my mom and I could plan this whole wedding, we would be great. Unfortunately, we can not do all the things that vendors can do. My opinion is not the only one that matters. I have to compromise, which I am not good at when it comes to the wedding.

I think about the wedding all day every day. I just want it to be perfect and I OBSESS over the details that bother me. I get really angry when someone who has nothing to do with the wedding expresses an unwanted opinion or suggests a change. There are people I know I can’t be around right now because I might yell at them for making a joke or asking a stupid question. I feel like the wedding is my child, and if someone gives me an unsolicited opinion about my child, I might punch them.

It’s bad. I need help.